But actually , you realize your strength then .The strength you have in you that will get you through anything . Pull you up through the worst ; even when it takes time .
My strength is - To Take a decision .
Simple as it may sound , but many people feel "guilt " of taking it & play the blame game - pushing causes to everything else to make the party realize about the crap .
Confusions , remorse , anger ,victimized approach is what stocks up next .Not for me .Its does not define me . Neither does writing about feminism and gloating about fight backs work for me . I personally think these are extremely weak minded people who need reassurance from the others around that they are strong .According to me , immaterial of men or women , if someone is treating you the way you dont like it , you yourself need to do something about it .
I cut the drama . I take a decision . Decision after a lot of observation of patterns & behaviors , a lot of pondering , taking and reasoning myself as to why; leading to a decision . And I live by it . My mind is blank and at a plain sublime rest when I have taken a decision . I feel lighter .I religiously follow it .
Come to logically think of it - I select the people & give them the power to govern me ( I like doing that - this is my definition of making the person feel special ) because I choose them & I trust them to judiciously "not " use it . But if at the end of the day , I feel otherwise , why should I bear the brunt of it ? What portion of this should make "me" feel bad ? Yes - disappointing because trust failed even after repeatedly let go offs . Horribly upset because of the closeness shared . But its ok . This case may be an exception . Rest are different . Good part is I know the type that I would wish to avoid in future for trusting .
It is in you . You dont manifest it . Its like something inside you which you always possessed , but was dormant .You dont know about it because you havent really used it as the ocassion to use it has never arisin .When you are in a non pleasant situation - you bound to act lousy - but the actions post it , determine your true self . You find it once - that's a struggle , like X men trying to realize & learn to channelize the power .And once when you know you have it in you , you then just use it when you require it !
May be I get it from my parents ! May be I get it from my mother ! May be she is the strength that has always been with me .Consiously ; subconsciously !I am thankful to her every bit , every core for this !
Old saying -A man is known by the company he keeps ! Well I follow it with heart . And trust me If I have picked you to be in the list - I have vested more than money in you - I have vested my heart ! :)
Each day is beautiful - Each day God makes me a day older & a day wiser !
