Mama m comin home ....

Its beautiful to sit , relax & get back to some of the beautiful memories from the past !

Beautiful time you have spent with your loved ones , special ones , time you were down rolling on the floor on some stupid joke busted outta nowhere from one of your friends , weird risks , adventures you thought could ruin your lives forever lol and also sometimes how you took unimportant things as "the" most serious issues in life n frowned and cribbed over them ! lol

Sitting in the train , going to my hometown , i realized , that i crib about so many things in life , that i have forgotten how to actually "be happy"

Watching a family , sit just right beside me , i could actually think of the times wen we as kids use to travel wid our parents !!! & how happy we were then !

Happy , in the literal sense of the word ! And then it struck me , with getting old , with having a busy routine and a demanding hectic schedule , people become a little inhuman to emotions , and stop appreciating simple things in life ... We are so busy thinking wat is store "tomorrow" & eventually so paranoid with the idea of future being bad , that we work towards it frantically , which stops us from enjoying "now" which is "present" !

I have had times wen i didn't acknowledge that i was having fun , but then after its over , i look back and say , i had a great time !!!! But when i am in that moment , i am in a rush , thinking what i would do after that ! I am not in that moment completely ..

I have been running so much , that i have forgotten , why i am doing this , & it is important for one know the reason "why" , cuz that keeps you grounded to your roots !

For me , success is nothing but being happy ! & the train journey put me to lots of thoughts that i did not think about in last few years . . .

Thoughts that so many things have changed rather evolved for me .... me, my surroundings ,my way of speaking ,dressing , my articulation of thoughts , so much ...

Nature is one such indication , that things have been on constant toll , constange change ...

I remember as a kid i use to be so excited while travelling from my hometown to Delhi( which was very often as a part of our summer vacations with parents ) , excited to see rivers & planes & forests & were fortunate enough to see all of that !

The eyes of this kid who was 4 sitting just on the opposite seat brightens up ,when his mother tells him that he would see a beautiful river under the bridge , but the excitement doesn't last for long as all what he sees is mud , chemical let outs, or dry rivers ...

At that time , i felt , its better to live in the present and enjoy it ! I realized that i had forbidden myself from enjoying , and if i did enjoy , it would be bad/a sin "not for me " .

I dont know when i formed these rules for myself , but i know that they have been there for long ! cuz i think i have probably forgotten how to have a good time ! lol !!It is like , "i want to .. but i cannot ! "

The stretch between vapi and surat is amazing ! Its lush green . We just know 2 shades of green light green and dark green , you should see to believe it ! so many shades of green that m so sure wouldn't even have names ! :)

I said to myself then , this beautiful air , this time , this greenery , i am going to enjoy & feel happy that i am a part of it right now . I closed the book i was reading , n peeped out of the window , captured the beautiful nature i saw , close my eyes , and felt the cool breeze on my face & did not bother about the locks of hair coming onto my face ....... and i felt "home " ... i was happy !

I have been in gujarat ..for 21 years ... and i am so happy about it ! There was a time when i wanted to run away from that place (thats in the relbelious kid's age ! :P ) but i am glad I was here ! cuz now i am a visitor to this place , dunno where will I go next !

:)



I can look back now , and happily say , i enjoyed that moment wen i was in it ! and not look back and regret that i did hav a good time , but i never realized it !

:)

Kaleidoscope

Kaleidoscope , scientifically speaking is a tube of mirrors containing loose colored beads, pebbles, or other small colored objects. The viewer looks in one end and light enters the other end, reflecting off the mirrors.

Thats' how ones view should be to the world ..towards life .
The basic colors , basic shapes when rotated by the power of time , show a totally different design , totally new pattern .

The Kaleidoscope of life shows all colors , colors of happiness, sorrow, pleasure , jealousy , togetherness, loneliness,love, hate , and what not..

Revolving with time, these colors mix , dissolve , and create a totally different pattern , one color leading to another , one color mixing in another , one color just dissolving n losing its identity in another color . Giving a totally different meaning to the shapes disintegrating , coinciding , like a situation dipping in every color of life !

That is one reason why "nature" comes into ones mind when spoken of "life" because it is vast , ever changing ,ever beautiful , and unpredictable .

The only thing is when we view a kaleidoscope , we admire it . Every shape , every pattern , every design , every color .
Only when we view the Kaleidoscope of life , we crib about the very fact of one situation , too rigid a way to view it .

White ,would not have an identity if there is no black .
Green can not be green if yellow and blue don't mix together .
Sometimes it is better that the green of evil n jealousy is overtaken by black .

No color, shape remains constant . It keeps on rotating , for some time its there , the very next moment , takes a totally different pattern . "constant" is not the nature of Kaleidoscope .

More often , We listen what we want to listen , think what we want to think , and see what we want to see .
There can be no fixed prescribed view to life only but one ..... be kaleidoscopic ... view every situation in a different way !

Easier said than done !
I know , somethings in life are not simple as written . It is a challenge to actually "walk the talk "

But one of my very good friend ( hopeless optimist ; just like me ;) ) said " Life is not all that complicated as we make it , because we want it to be complex "

We are the viewers , God is the one to rotate the time , the colors , shapes , just tumble for us .

Only when we sit back , and enjoy , appreciate , the colors of nature ... Broaden our horizons to thinks , feel ,only then we realize a life meant for us , like a free bird who can spread its wings and fly off without fear , anywhere it wants to , just like said by Rabindranath Tagore ... where the mind is without fear & the head is held high