Feeling :A boon

Its a boon to feel :)
Not in the corporate world ...
Who is bothered .. corporate is not life ... just a part of life :)

Its a boon to feel extremes ...
A lot of people are scared of their own emotions ... they make a conscious effort "not" to feel ... Tough guys hunh !
;)
:)

I dont understand whats so wrong to feel vulnerable .
I use to feel the same earlier ..... snub my emotions ... personal emotions ....but then one fine day ... i said to myself .. why am I doing this ? and for who ? who is that person I want to fool ? myself ?

Feelings are a part of me .. its about how I am feeling at that very moment . Why am I snubbing it ? do i like it when somebody else snubs when i express my feelings to him/her ? NO the question is , then why I am doing this to myself at the very first place ? :) why did I give that right to myself first ? :) its wrong :) i should respect my feelings first ... and then .. the rest does not actually matters .. probably thats how you dont bother about expecting .. may be ..

If i feel love .. overflowing .. I acknowledge it ... i say .. I dont know past ... I dont know future .. i know ... RIGHT NOW ... I feel love ..n the moment is priceless ...result .. smile ... ear to ear sometimes , a trickle of happiness from the eye :) :) :)

When I feel angry , I acknowledge it ... I babble unwanted things .. shout , scream ...... and I say to myself .. I will shout .. i will scream reason being I AM ANGRY ! .....and once i acknowledge it ...be in it ... it gets out of head ... and everything is a calm ocean :)

When I feel devastated .. i acknowledge it ... i accept that I feel bad .. its ok to feel bad ... its ok to feel that things are not going around are pinching you ... you are hurt .. feel the hurt ... in your heart .. n let it out from your eyes ......


Every feeling that you feel .. is your own ... dont disown it :) its your own baby .... its just needs your acknowledgment ..... thats the best way to care for it .. n gradually , it would subside :) very lovingly ..
This is something that i would like to call ..emotional cleansing .. which is utmost necessary !

We make the biggest mistake in life .. keep snubbing what we feel and follow the ridiculous rule "BE HAPPY" . & we follow it so religiously that we dont even realize when we start faking it !
:)
In the most break down situations ... you keep snubbing your feeling ... example sad/remorse/devastation and be presentable all the time ,a happy face to the world .. talk , act out to yourself and at the end .. you end up crying like a baby while watching a funny comedy movie :)
:) :) :) and you start feeling so YUCK abt yourself and say ..what the fuck have you being doing to yourself all this time :) :) :)



Be yourself .... feel what you feel like whenever cuz you are ..at the end of the day a human being :)

THEN ... you ll be happy

Everything will pass by ... happiness , joy , love , sadness, tensions , nothing stays ...

:)

Somethings , although , do last forever :) and for that ......."forever" has to come from within oneself ....and then its just :) Forever :) :) :)

I have learnt it today .. i have felt it today :) from a very very darling friend of mine who is a total sweetheart ! M blessed to have such good souls around me .. :) seriously :) I wish all the happiness in the world for that sweet soul ! :)


Feeling is one of the greatest things God has blessed us with ... And all the more He has blessed us with the power to emote ... this is where He has shown his bias of love towards human beings ...words ,actions ,gestures :) ... how often do we acknowledge it ?

:)

He is a master mind sitting up there :) ... no matter how many physics chemistry we keep applying .. His mechanics are the greatest .... so great that you can never understand .. and why do you want to ? He is there to take care of it ....

Keep feeling ...... keep loving ....keep being "Happy" in the true sense of the word and be a reason for others to be happy and spread the same message :)

"LEISURE"

What is this life if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

No time to stand beneath the boughs
And stare as long as sheep or cows.

No time to see, when woods we pass,
Where squirrels hide their nuts in grass.

No time to see, in broad daylight,
Streams full of stars, like skies at night.

No time to turn at Beauty's glance,
And watch her feet, how they can dance.

No time to wait till her mouth can
Enrich that smile her eyes began.

A poor life this if, full of care,
We have no time to stand and stare.

By Wm. Henry Davies.
(Wm. Henry Davies (1871-1940) is to be considered as the poet of the tramps. Born at Newport, Wales in the UK, Davies came to America from Great Britain and lived the life of a vagabond. One day, as the result of jumping a train, he lost one of legs. Davies returned to England where he continued to live the life of a tramp and a pedlar. He wrote poetry (presumably he did right along) and, eventually, he determined to print his own book and did so with the little money he earned panhandling. A copy of this first work, A Soul's Destroyer, came into the hands of George Bernard Shaw; which, in turn, led to the popularization of the poet.

Me , myself & Me

I am ....

*Moody
*Voluble
*Laconic
*Fun Loving
*Peace loving
*Wild
*Serene
*Feminine
*Rough
*Conditions applied : on my terms & conditions

I Loathe
- 2 faced ppl ...cuz i dont know which side to slap first .
- Hypocrisy
- Ultra bossy ppl who think they are over protective but are actually massaging their own ego
- cold food , outside food all the time
- super noisy place
- Bad choreography
- Self centered ppl
- people without integrity
- cockroaches
- lizards
- smudged CCD heart shaped cream on capachino
- over demanding rickshawalas
- when I am outta money :P
- a promise broken
- narrow spaces , narrow mindsets , narrow vision
- tiered of life ppl with no enthusiasm ... or ppl with enthusiam only for themselves not for others
- soaring high temperatures
-Non Veg
- out of proportion & frequent drinking
- Crying , feeling sad , feeling lost , feeling alone
- Feeling like a loser /idiot & over stressing my health cuz of this
-Feeling drained out , lifeless
- rotting my brain cells

*Cannot hate something untill and unless I am MADE to hate ,and then i religiously hate it .*

I love ...
> Myself
> Family
>Aum my lil puchka baby
> very close friends circle
>my individuality
> to be pampered
>to be loved
> to be respected
> to be understood
> lime light for all the right reasons
> lime soda sweet n sour
> to be my parent's daughter
>being a woman that God made me
>flowers
>FLOWERS
>Chocolates
>Gelato Madagascar dark chocolate icecream
> sweets
> Archies card shop
> CCD
> TGIF
> Martini
> Mumma's food preparation
> smell of the earth on first rains
> long late night walks , city expedition at its best
> Mango dolly
> getting lost on a long drive
> being silent at times
> cribbing about all the wrong happening in life and throwing it out
> laughing my worries out
> wide natural spaces ... open sky , wide ocean , huge mountains,Waterfalls
> Greenery
> Nature
> LAughing
> Being happy
> good music
>DANCING
>Cothes
>Cosmetics
> Shoes
> Jwelery
> My debit card
>SHOPPING
>Go Carting
> Adventures
>Creativity
>Life
> Vibrancy ....liveliness
>Enthusiasm
> Day dreaming
>Winters
>popcorns
>Warmth
>Moma's Hug
>DOGGIEEEEEEEEEE
>Colors
> being me

....and lots more unexplored


In this whole exercise , I realized , that it took me 15 minutes to figure out what I disliked and 5 minutes to know what I liked .

Hence proved ... Dil to bachcha hai ji ...Thoda kachcha hai ji !!
:)

And I touch the farthest brightest moon tonight , when I dig down deep in my soul & set it free !

Stage !
A wooden set up ..... set up only for some time ..only till the show is on .. and then dis assembled once the work is done .
Simple .
Thats how ppl think of it .

It means Life to me . Stage : a place one can get only if a person is worth it . You have to EARN the stage to be there . A talent , a flair , a passion ....You should have something ... some "X" factor , only then the stage contains you ... else throws you out .

By God's grace , I have never had any stage fears ! one such reason is that I never tried to do something that i was incompetent of on the stage ... probably thats the reason why I was never scared .
Stage is a feeling of HOME to me . Its like I BELONG there . I was meant to be there... I was BORN to be there .
How can the the very pleasure of being on a stage can stress a person ? Its very vague for me ! It like , when I am on stage, I am the Queen and the audience, my people ! Its like I am The highest point in me then ... it gives me goose bumps ... of being thrilled...excited.....Happy !

More so if I am on the stage to dance !


It sets me free .. the area ,It just does not not create a space for your movements ....but it comes from a lot deeper ..space , freedom in your mind ... your heart !!
Its celebration .. joy , extacy ...


The feeling of being a billionaire is nothing in front of this , Feeling class apart & beyond of a kick experienced by drugs or liquor , Its a feel way too beyond an orgasm ...

Its meditation even when you know you are being watched ..... its a feeling of harmony with the living ...Its you are drifted to this world you have never been each and every time !
Its a Feeling beyond compare !

When the mind is not free , in lots of distress .... soul is wanting to come out ... a feeling that has been suppressed for long sees a wide physical elevated space ...... its a let out ... emotional cleansing .. It is shouting at yourself for keeping a feeling bottled up for long ... and like a soda fizzz it come out ...... and every thing is as calm as deep ocean waters once again ....


The feeling of being a billionaire is nothing in front of this , Feeling class apart & beyond of a kick experienced by drugs or liquor , Its a feel way too beyond an orgasm ...

Its meditation even when you know you are being watched ..... its a feeling of harmony with the living ...Its you are drifted to this world you have never been each and every time !
Its a Feeling beyond compare !

:).... :)


Stage for me is positivity ! The concept of winning or loosing is way beyond for me .... it never strikes me .... what matters is I am on it ... Cuz I m there of the Stage's will , I am loved .. I am respected .. I am acknowledged .. I am ...ME ! Thats what matters

Dance ,Art , Stage , Lights on it , heart throbbing music .... they talk to me ... they are like my friends ..... friends who never defy me ... never loath me ... never point a finger at me ... they never demand any change from me ... but at the same time , they change me for good ! I can never be alone !
God has been very kind to have granted me life long friends , guardians , God in Himself !


And I touch the farthest brightest moon tonight , when I dig down deep in my soul & set it free !

:)

I am blessed , and I take this opportunity , to realize this , and Thank God for every small thing He has done for me :)
Love you :)

Nuptial Bliss

Nuptial Bliss !!
:)
Attended the wedding of my brother , they knew each other from the last 7 years ....
I sat with my brother , who had mehendi on both hands , and was reluctant to take it off even at night 2 o clock . cuz he wanted the color to get the darkest... :) cute naa :)

We sat outside in the chilling cold .. and i had a chance to speak to him abt bhabhi n him . He is usually quiet about all these things :) . I asked him ," when did you know , you had to marry this girl ? " , answer ... " the time i met her . We both just knew it ...it was just like " so when should we get married? " "
:)
I knew it was not a filmy ans . Beacause i cud sense how happy, confidant he was when he said that ...

I was really happy for him !
:)


Its nice to see both tie the nuptial knot :)
But I have seen one thing , very evident ..... even if the girl knows the guy from 10 yrs and then get married , she is still wonders ... if she would be accepted by the guy's side , whether she will be understood , will there be any1 to help her out .....

even if the girl has known the guy from 20 yrs , her eyes will still get wet when she leaves her house (even tho it is for the time being :P yea for me , its going to be lik that :D ) & that time , to be held strongly in the arms of the one taking you as a gesture of " hey m there with yu gurl ! " , is a beautiful feeling :)

Its very important to comfort the new member whom you bring to your family . Its your responsibility that the new member does not follow a custom which is meaningless .. or which is causing discomfort to the member ...

The most exciting part is when you understand the 7 promises and give your consent to it .... when you officially take the lady as your wife , when you have the first official meal in front of all that when you say to yourself "Boss , this is serious business .. YOU ARE GETTING MARRIED !! : lol , life changes .... and it feels superb ! :)

It was a really a nice experience to be a part of the wedding .... EVERYONE cannot be happy , what really matters at the end of the day , if the two , for whom the whole function is for , are happy !

Wishing my brother and bhabhi a beautiful life together !
can just wish to be a queen the time when i get married :) :) :) HOPE SO ;)

All the women , Independent ..throw yr hands up at meah !

Today when people speak about "independent women" and women empowerment and all the facts about "encouraging" the women to be independent is definitely there is most of the forign countries ..
but is it an established concept in India ?
is is still established n accepted in the majority of India?
Women speaking abt the same on the T.V shows and interviews , struggling artists , any media related female personalities , or the top most corporate women , who have established there own businesses .. all of them only make a handful of women as compared to the population of women in India .

The fact is "Women empowerment" or "women fights back" is a very interesting topic for the entertainment media to speak on and make television serials , for film makers to get a blockbuster hit , for politicians to get votes , for potential husbands to get wives

Lets get real guys . do you seriously believe that the whole funda of "working women " is really acceptable?
how many of you guys would understand if your wife had to do an overtime ? or how many of you guys wud let your women give time to wrk at home ?

I dont understand one thing . Why is still the "duty" of women to luk after the house? by this statement i definitely don't mean its the duty of the man .....
i dont still understand why cant there be a 50:50 share of responsibility in everything .. ?
what is so wrong in respecting the individuality of the lady if she wants to wrk ?

why is the women told that there is no need to work jus because the husband is earning enough!
Why is earning the issue ? the issue is NOT earning .. its about WORKING ...

I personally believe that it is an individuality of a women which needs to be respected .
I still dont understand what is the big fuss about . before being a woman , or a man , we are humans . And it is written in Shreemad Bhagwat Geeta that every person must do what he or she is destined to do .
there is a difference between being a man- woman & masculinity - femininity . difference of which i m pasting frm a source as below

"
Femininity stands for a society where gender roles overlap: both men and women are supposed to be modest, tender and concerned with the quality of life.” (Hofstede, page 261) The Masculinity and Femininity dimension describes how cultures differentiate on not between gender roles. Masculine cultures tend to be ambitious and need to excel. Members of these cultures have a tendency to polarize and consider big and fast to be beautiful. In workplaces employees emphasize their work to a great extent (live in order to work) and they admire achievers who accomplished their tasks. Feminine cultures consider quality of life and helping others to be very important. Working is basically to earn money which is necessary for living. In business as well as in private life they strive for consensus and develop sympathy for people who are in trouble. Small and slow are considered to be beautiful.
"
It is ok for females to be a little masculine ... i mean whats so majorly wrong about it i dont understand..infact every man /woman has both a feminine side as well as a masculine side . why is it still not accepted by the society ?

And now the society argues about the role of the bread earner of the family .

Patriarchy is a social system, followed in most regions of India, in which the father or eldest male is head of the household, having authority over women and children. Patriarchy also refers to a system of government by males, and to the dominance of men in social or cultural systems. It may also include title being traced through the male line.

But at the end of the day , i still dont get the point . y if a man is wrking n is the main earner of the family, & if the women of the house also earns , does the focus shift? i dont think so . or does it make the male less important in the family ?

there is something called as " equity" which people should be more bothered of rather than "equality".
I dont want to be equal to anyone . yes i want equity. i want to do the best i can .
Feeling of earning your own money n "spending" your own money is a very special feel ........ which is same .."equal" for male as well as for female .

Most of the families dont want the women of the house to work because they think that too much of independence will loosen their hold over the women . Most of the families don't like the new female member to family to "talk " much as it is a sign of disrespect to voice one's opinion . And some families may just "allow" the female to work (as a "favor" ) so that she keeps doing something but doesnt get anything demanding back home ! What about the credit that she actually deserves for her work ? what about she actually deserves if she is worth it . .

It may sound very orthodox , but yes , this is still prevalent .

the most surprising thing today is that people who are well educated , highly qualified also share the same perspective. Taking the cover of "society" these people say that women of the house are not suppose to wrk .. but wait a second .. what is society made up of? its made up of people ... you n me.. "we" make the rules .... so wats the fuss about. just because a majority of people follow some stupid old fashioned thing , every one should follow it ? says who ?

Regret that schools colleges teach courses , but not talent , not equity !

i believe that the women can take care of the house as well as of her job .. only if her husband n family supports her .. 50:50 .. tats the mantra . this can be a very nice time , where "helping" each other , can turn into spending time together with each other ..... its all how one looks at it !

It can spice up ur romantic lives .. picking each other frm wrk ..spending time out together ... feeling the same luv arnd as ppl claim to have lost after marriage ....... learning frm each other .. sharing if you had a bad day ...find some1 to lean over ..... laughing out the stress ... lots of things can be done .....ONLY if it happens from both ends .

the sad part is . it does not happen frm both ends .. the man of the house wants respect and attention and at the end the girl because she has to be the responsible woman of the house , gives him that . quits job, luks after the house . or may be the case is vice versa ....... i dont knw whos happy in the end n who is sad ... who wins ..who looses ....who dominates ..who comprises .... but thats not it should be !

And i m not here to start a "free women" campaign as well ...
I dont have anything to say to these women who listen to all that and keeps quite or are over dominating or the men who think women arnt capabale enough or anything to the society .

I am always brought up in a very loving environment where i was never humiliated or insulted ...
An environment where i was told to be independent .

where i was told studying was a good thing , And that no matter wat .. "vidya" never leaves you and is useful to you all the time . That working teaches you better ways of life , keeps you occupied , refrains your mind from going into wrong directions , wrong thoughts !

I staunchly believed that i should have my group of ppl with whom i cud interact with
A position where i cud take decisions n would help people .
get appreciation for what i do . for the thought process i have .
this makes me feel independent

Sometimes when you hear comments that are very narrow in magnitude , I get a lil disturbed , rather .... i dont agree with them .Seems how small even the generation of today thinks .

I sometimes wonder real hard ........ will this perspective ever change ?

And your rhythm makes me yours forever ......

Waters can be so deep ..so vast ....so playful ..so calm all at the same time !

After a horrendous workshop of 3 days in Pondicherry , I stole some time out to see the beach (Its a shame that you have been to Pondi and not seen a beach .. & i don regret moving my lazy bum 6 in the morning to go see it ,cuz it was worth it !! :) )

The feeling when the gushing water from the sea splashes your feet and runs back to where it belong , is undescribable ! Forget about worries , You run out of thoughts , all what you can think of is the smell of the ocean , the golden sand , beautiful conches , shells and the sky ..as if reflecting the vast blue water ....or vice versa ?

Beautiful cute crab family catches my eye ....... Only if I were smaller than them , they would look like massive tall dark handsome martians exploring their way on Mars !

Standing inside the waters with my jeans folded upto knee , i see the vastness in the form of blue beautiful water ...and it makes me feel so good .. like i am looking inside myself and can feel the same within me ... the wild big waves can seem to be charging right on to you , but to me , it seemed like a joyous rhythm , a happiness that the waves felt that I was there , playful irresistible arching waves waiting to splash on me ...I opened my arms welcoming them , and saw them gushing in delight towards me ....... It didnt scare me , I knew them , they knew me ! :) May be it was a part of me , that I was seeing there .... A part of me wanting to get lost ... dissolved somewhere there ....

With sandles in my hand , i feel the wet sand underneath my feet when the water runs back , with such a mighty force and it feels like you just want to be there forever .


I just refused to leave the place during the night ! Although the beach was closed , a good portion outside the gates was sand and coconut trees . Resting there on the sand, hearing waves shudder when they hit the beach, is a beauty . It s a music , a rhythm that none can copy or record , you just have to be there to listen to it .

A cup of hot cofffe mug in my hand , sitting by the beach watching a sillhoute of trees in the moonlight , I knew I was going to enter the humdrum life tomorrow , but what really mattered then , was the freedom , the vastness , the sound of the crashing waves , me , and my world !!